I Will Do Anything For You. I Need You. :(
I feel like missing every wonderful happening in my life just to please them. Expectations I had been trying so hard to push myself. I lost myself. I lost my identity. It came to me that I had no idea who I am anymore. I abide by just what my parents and society believes me to be. I am complying with anyone’s opinion just for me to feel accepted even if I disagree I will just nod my head for affirmation. And it’s because I am trying hard to fill something I don’t have.
Sometimes too, when everything feels so bad and I had lost the last neck to cling to, I seek something out of inanimate thing that can lessen my misery. I found it. My search leads me to refuge on the liquor and my drunken stupor makes me feel oh so good at the moment, just by being numb and unshackle.
But now stopped for few weeks, but I am craving for it now because I am in pain…