A Little Scared
well im almost 32 i've been standing at this door as long as I can remember. Ive knocked and pounded and even peaked in. but i've always been to scared to walk in. I dont know if i'm scared of the changes or the way i'm going to let people down cause I'm not who they think I should be. I finally took my first step in but I have to admit it was the easy one. I told my dad and stepmom that I want to change my sex. I didnt know what to expect I knew my stepmom has gay freinds and coworkers, but being trans is a little different lol. well they were supportive and just want me to be happy. but theyre not really in my life much its my mom and sister who scare me. they already tell me i'm going to hell because I dont go to church. they constantly bash gays and trans people. I love them so much but I cant hide myself away anymore. I know they will never speak to me again they wont even try to understand. sometimes I wish I could just disappear but I can't. so I'm left with one foot in the door for now but its the closest i've ever been and I cant close the door again.