A friend of mine met a new girl recently. Shes an awesome girl and they make really , really cute couple. I am happy for them, but I so freakin depressed at the same time. OK...I'l admit it....I'm jealous. They're meeting each others parents now and everyone is soo f**kin happy form them and I'm as lonley as some could feel right now. I'll never have that. I mean even if I met a great guy, I still don't get all that support and happiness that straight people get.
I f**king hate this! I want to be happy for him, but it makes me so sad, cause I just don't think I'll ever be that happy of even fit in. I think thats how I really feel...that I'll never fit in, I'll just be the loner of every group of freinds I have. I'll always be on the outside. They are all very nice to me, but when the couples events come up, I'll allways be on the outside, like a f**king dog.
Sorry I sound so angry, I would never say this to another person face to face. Gay or straight, but I need to get this off my chest so it doesn't stew in my head. I really hate that I feel like this. It really hurts