Life Or Death Situation

I am in my 30s and I found out from my ob that due to my health history I wouldn't be able to carry on in my pregnancy. See I had my 3rd child and it was born at 24 weeks well I was put on life support. Apparently my lungs were almost full to capacity and my heart was bad as well it turned out I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. My ob told me I was close to needing a heart transplant. My child is doing good now. However my ob told me its a life or death situation and i am almost 12 weeks. I guess termination of the pregnancy is the only way and I have to think of my family. But it hurts knowing medically I need to end this pregnancy. Has anyone gone thru this? I want to know has anyone had the procedure asleep or sedated. I know I don't want to be awake for it. My heart is broken this but I don't want to loose my life if I carry full term. I saw two obs and they both said the same thing. And will things get better after the termination?
lostnconfusedgirl lostnconfusedgirl
36-40
Dec 7, 2012