Written on December 23rd, 2011
Finally- it's taken a long, long time. I don't say these words lightly or without being sincere I am extremely happy and extremely confident with who I am. My life for the last eight years could of been the end- and almost was many times. I really could have ended it all. Maybe when you reach rock bottom you also find yourself. I started analyzing myself instead of overgeneralizing. I now can see with clarity that I am a pretty cool person. I dont want to be arrogant, just confident. I realize there is a lot of good stuff about me. If you're interested id love to tell you. I used to feel I need approval or somehow to avoid people's opinions of me. I don't need anyone to approve of me. I approve of me! I realize that it will take some time for this to become my new operational mindset. However, Im ready to fight my anxiety and depression. I can finally make friends. I can be happy alone! I can be happy with other people. I just don't have to fear more than is necessary now!