From as long as i can remember i thought i was a girl. I was very young and they would dress me up like a babydoll. I remember crying when they would take the clothes off of me. While i do like to dress feminine when i can it's not about the clothes for me. It's about being who i am, I want to be able to be the gentle submissive person that i am inside, i want to be able to gasp and giggle and scream and do all of those things that come so natural yet i have learned to push down and hide from the world. I am this person who on the outside portrays a very masculine leader of men but it is all a complete lie! i have lived my life for everyone else but me and hope that someday i will be able to live it for the ones i love but only this time as myself. I don't know if they will love me after they find out who i really am but i pray for a way to find the courage to at least show them.