I Am Not Sure...

My husband is a **** addict. He looks it up online a lot (albeit not within the past month) and has done so for a long time. I've confronted him on it a lot with nothing coming of it. Then, I caught him propositioning other women for sex that live near us and sending pictures of his 'parts' to other women.  This while I was either pregnant or right after I had our second daughter in November. 

Since then, I've been laid up with postpartum depression and very close to ending up in a mental ward. he has picked up the pieces 100% and been there for my girls, wiping butts, diapering, feeding, getting up with them, everything. I do nothing but work and go to school.

We both agreed if the girls never came along, we would not still be married. Our sex life isn't all that often because I have no desire for it. Knowing that he has seen so much **** and what he has done is just a turn off for me.  I can't stop thinking about it or anything.

Anyway, I don't know what will happen.  I love my daughters and they love their dad but I don't want them to see their mom getting walked all over like a dog their whole lives either.

aka746 aka746
26-30, F
2 Responses Feb 28, 2007

I suggest that you talk to friends that you trust or seek some kind of counselling. You do not want to live the rest of your life feeling bad. You deserve to be happy. When you husband does not treat you the way you would like, ask him how he would expect a man to treat his daughters. Maybe he will look at things differently. <br />

I was confused when I got married.