Contradictory Emotions In Multiple Loves.

I am with a guy that adores me, treats me nice, is calm, understanding... really amazing.

Then there's this other guy... with charisma, joy, depth, and a job...

I'll call them John and Johnny... John being my current love... Johnny being the possible second one. I feel wonderful when I'm around him, he makes me feel paid attention to... he takes me out. We kissed last night, and while it was awkward and felt silly cause his lips were not something I was used to, it was also exciting, fun... and it took my breath away. John thinks I am incapable of maintaining multiple relationships, and I am fairly sure Johnny only wants sex... but I'm not sure.

I love being with Johnny. So much. I told John I would stop being alone with him, for my own control, but I don't know that I want that. I can't stop thinking of him kissing me and touching me. He is so strong, just pulled me under him for some strong, lusty kisses. I loved it... and I want to do it again. I can't keep this from John. If I do it again, he will know... and do I even want to get emotionally attached to someone else? I don't think I do, but Johnny is... hard to waist, to say the least. I can't stop thinking about him.

I have no flipping clue what to do, here. :/