But i need to share my life experience .
My parents got divorced when i had 14 , i moved with my mom and sister out of our house . i had few relationships when i had 17 till 18 . That's when i met him , a tall guy serious looking . He had 28 y old and i can say was love on the first sight . He told me he been married and he had a child ( ofc after having sex ;) and i was young and stupid believing in love so i said is ok . One year went by and one day he was sad and feeling down so i ask what is wrong . he told me that if he would tell me what was going on in his mind i would leave him . after i said several times i wont there comes another bomb . he was married and had another child with another woman eh ! i was like wtf . hurted bad but i loved him and he swear that he had no relationships with her and he hated her and bla bla bla . and stupid of me i did not leave him but i continue being his gf .... me tall young thin beautiful rich ..... oh and haha he ofc did not have money several times so i gave him but nvm that . after 1 y and a half comes another big surprise ... he was trying tell me something and at one moment he just said : my son is 3 y old ! Felt like all of me died in that moment ! he was the man i trusted loved been so much through all this time and noone noone in my family or friends know my whole story , i had to stay silent . i stood up and left but he followed me ... and after a week of breaking up i went back with him . i know i am stupid but i loved him so much more than my life . He always offended me , treated me like **** also hited me twice .
One year ago .. my dad dies . Everyone who reading this and went through that knows what i felt and you know what ??? He did not even show at his funeral ... he came with his car following us but he was not by my side . he left me alone there in the day i needed him most . The worse ... he traveled only 5 days after my dad died . That made things cold and colder each day more but now even that 1 y passed i am still with him , i feel like this year i did not live , i felt dead . I REALLY WANT TO LEAVE HIM and i am making plans to go out of my country . i have people there waiting for me , and oh i forgot something , during this year a guy been close to me . by internet ofc but i can feel the difference and what a difference . When i go have coffee or have sex or whatever im doing with him i think of this guy and i am in love ! I am stucked in the past but i dream for the future . Do not judge me but pls anyone who been through a bad relationship help me ! any hypnosis or any site or something i can do to break free . i want to leave and i will leave him but the pain will be huge ! Still they say better an end with pain than an endless pain . i am 23 y old now :) !
Thank you everyone who readed my story and i will apreciate it .
agirlouthere agirlouthere
26-30, F
3 Responses Aug 25, 2014

You are still young and have the rest of your life to live.Its going to be hard but the hardest and best choices are never easy....think about it.meditate.but leave him swits

i made it :)

Go out, do exercise, under the sun, it will change the chemical "falling in love" slowly. Do ignore him sometimes, think that you deserve better.

You are young and beautiful.

Save yourself from this bad situation and world you are in.

You deserve better. Every women deserves a strong loyal passionate man to be by her side v

<3 thank you