Thinking About the Next

Where do I begin??  In September I moved from Denver, Colorado to South Korea.  I came here to teach English and to set out on my own.  But within a month I met a guy- he also happens to be in the army.  Since the day we first met- we have spent every weekend together-- only weekends because he lives four hours away from me.  He usually makes the four hour journey by bus to come and see me.  I was a little apprehensive about getting involved, but he wooed me- said he loved me--- everything.  And we have been going steady for five months.  A couple weeks ago I discovered he had a myspace-- never saw the actual page just saw that he had one.  I confronted him about it because he said from the beginning he had one, but hadn't been on recently because his past has so much drama.  Anyways he said I didn't mean for you to see what was on there- I haven't updated it and I will--  then add you as a friend.  I just felt like he was trying to hide something from me- and I asked openly, " are you playing me??" He said through his tears:  No, I love you, I would do anything for you, I'd give up anything for you and I would never hurt you.

And I was happy.  Been happy- he even told me recently he had a dream that he had asked me to marry him and I said yes and he saw that we were happy together.  He also said he came to a realization that he loves me, like he loved me before, but now he really loves me--  and he said he hadn't felt like this in while because one of his previous girlfriends passed away from cancer--- but he feels that love with me again.


Now back to the myspace thing- I was curious about what he had said-- something he didn't want me to see.  Well I found it the other day and he mentions that he loves and he is happy with another girl--- I would have thought nothing about it-- but the girl has a picture of him on her page.  Now I feel as though I've been lied to this whole time.  He has been by my side through tough times out here-- and to find that he may be using me- breaks my heart.  The next time I see him will be  my birthday (in 9 days) -- and I have to confront him about all of this.  I feel lost, confused and devastated. 

thefragile85 thefragile85
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 11, 2009

I am sorry for what you are going through.<br />
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Take a look at the message about being in love with this woman. What is the date? Was it before you both met or got serious?<br />
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Speak with him about how you feel the trust has been broken. Keep in mind that it is repairable.<br />
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I will pray for you, and, be assured, that no matter what the outcome, it will be for the best I am sure!<br />
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God bless you! :-)