I Hate My Life.
I am confused because I am 28, I live with my parents, because I built up massive credit card debt. I have a boyfriend. He is 33. He is an amazing man, but has suffered from bipolar disorder most of his adult life. He doesn't work. My parents hate him, and he has been staying at our house often, and today they told him that he no longer could. We live in a very wealthy area (which makes our finanical situation harder) and anyone from my past would have expected me to have a big rock on my finger by now and lead this perfect suburban lifestyle. However, I was never attracted to corporate men.
I am not white trash. I have a college degree, and a decent job. I am a headhunter for a living, and find high level accounting and finance professionals positions. Since I just started at a new company, and I currently work off of a draw, I don't have enough money to get out of debt and move out.
Since my boyfriend makes no money, he can't help with this either. He is a local musican. I'm confused, wondering if I should just sell out, and meet some rich guy and get married. But I really don't want to loose my laid back lifestyle. I'm fun, I have alot of male friends. I am attractive and intelligent. I'm not a bad person, I just made some bad decisions. I'm really close to declaring bankrupcy and wiping the slate clean, but I don't want to give up yet.
With this new problem that me and my boyfriend have it has put a strain on the relationship with my family, and with him. I feel that if I break up with him, I will be alone. Plus, I enjoy dating him. I just don't know what to do. I don't know what this site is all about. I just needed to vent. I'm sure no one will read this.
I'm sure there are people with much bigger problems and would kill to be in my shoes...but its hard to think that way when the silliest thing, like moving out of your parents house with your adult boyfriend is a huge uphill battle.
I'm depressed over all of this. It's been going on for years. And I'm just about to give up. I bet no one has had this experience.