To Help Or Not To Help??Okay, here I am trying to help a stupid girl out of the mess that she made for herself.. WHY? Well I have a heart and it is breaking for her because I know the pain she must be feeling.. I am lost on how to go about doing this without putting myself in danger. It's hard to do because this girl has hurt me so bad in the past I just can't believe that I am actually going to help her. I guess being a good person has it's up and downs.. and this is a major downfall.
Helping her is like me picking old wounds, making them bleed once again. Doing this not only allows people to know where I have run to, but also puts me in danger by trying to get her away from the man that tried to kill me on several occasions.
I just need more time to think of a way, but I know she doesn't have much time on her hands. I figure that I am just going to have to go down there and do it myself without help. My sister has agreed to help me, but I don't think that she can handle seeing what will be waiting for us. The reality of it all is to much for her to handle, she never seen the **** that we will encounter and I don't want to be the reason that she does. I will go alone and maybe get help from others in the neighborhood, but it won't be easy.
I think I may care for people too much, especially people that don't give a damn about me and has betrayed me more than once. I guess things happen for a reason, and my little voice in my head is telling me that I need to help. If I don't and something happens then I will be the one with her blood on my hands. I just couldn't live with myself if something like that were to happen, so I have to step in now while I still can.
imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 0 Dec 13, 2012