I have been married for going on 15 yrs. and I have only been with him. Yes, I was a virgin when I got married. I wouldn't probably have these feelings but he has cheated on me and I can't have the same sex with him like I use to. I hear my friends talk about their own experiences and I sit there just listening to all the different stories. Can't help but to be curious about it all. Is it really bad to have these thoughts and feelings? I feel like a terrible person.