Confessions Of A Single Woman.This is so not me, telling the world about my frustrations but here goes. I have never had a boyfriend since birth, never been kissed nor touched. I have always been fine with it. I have always felt like the love of my family and friends are enough. But when I turned 23, I felt like the need to be loved emotionally and physically by an opposite sex just grew stronger. On days like these (PMS and rainy days), I just feel depressed and desperate. I blame the hormones.
My friends all gush about boyfriend experiences/dates, and I am left with nothing to tell. One cousin of mine knew I never had a boyfriend and reacted like it's impossible, and gives me a whats-wrong-with-you stare. In my mind, I roll my eyes and I think... can I just say fcuk.
I don't really mind their reactions/ opinions. I'm usually ok with it, but it has become undeniable that this is something I can't ignore. But what's a girl to do? I hate dates. In fact, I have never gone out on a date. And all my guy friends are taken. So yeah. I log in to EP to rant, because I don't make the effort to reach out and then feel sorry for myself for being desperate and depressed. I guess I really am f'd up. :-/
Update: When I wrote this, I was feeling f'd up. I had PMS. I felt all emotional.
Now, the negativity has subsided and I am able to take every comment/opinion/question in a positive light and with an open mind. Just sharing.
thissillyatom 22-25, F 7 Responses 4 Jul 30, 2012