Don't Touch Me

My whole life I have always shirked away from getting close to people. I feel awkward when I hug people or even brush legs or anything! I usually scoot away, especially if someone else touches me.
I did not join the wrong group.
I'm single and I have been for a couple of months. I've been in an intimate relationship. I'm not desperate for a boyfriend again or anything. I just want physical contact so bad!
Once I can rely and trust a person, then I'm a lot more affectionate and touchy. I love cuddling and hugging, and all that stuff. I think I just grew up in a home where we didn't really hug or touch each other much.
I miss it so much, more than anything! I'm afraid I'll start sleeping around because I need it so badly.
renbrooks521 renbrooks521
18-21, F
2 Responses Sep 6, 2012

I relate to that a lot. <br />
My family have never been affectionate, not just physically but verbally too.<br />
I'm very withdrawn because of that, and yet with the right person, I can be very pasionate and romantic. <br />
I crave it every morning when I wake up next to an empty pillow and every night when I go to bed alone, and all the hours between.

I'm a lot like you. Very distant with people i am not terribly familiar with. Doesnt mean though that I dont want quality and quiet one on one time.