Hold My HandI don't know what to do. It feels like there's something wrong with me. I just want someone to hold me, is that too much to ask? I'm a good person. I swear I am. I do my best to be as kind and courteous and loving as humanly possible. I don't know what to do.
I feel so lost. I'm jealous of the commercials I see of people kissing and hugging; and I don't think to myself, "That should be me,". No, instead, my heart just aches. Sometimes I have to look away. It's a commercial, it's not even real. And the worst part is that I know it's not real and it STILL hurts. ******* pathetic.
You know, sometimes in the middle of the night I hold my hands together and pretend I'm holding someone else's hand. I close my eyes and pretend that my love is next to me holding my hand. I don't think about sex or even a kiss or a hug. I think about someone holding my hand.