Hold My Hand

I don't know what to do. It feels like there's something wrong with me. I just want someone to hold me, is that too much to ask? I'm a good person. I swear I am. I do my best to be as kind and courteous and loving as humanly possible. I don't know what to do.
I feel so lost. I'm jealous of the commercials I see of people kissing and hugging; and I don't think to myself, "That should be me,". No, instead, my heart just aches. Sometimes I have to look away. It's a commercial, it's not even real. And the worst part is that I know it's not real and it STILL hurts. ******* pathetic.
You know, sometimes in the middle of the night I hold my hands together and pretend I'm holding someone else's hand. I close my eyes and pretend that my love is next to me holding my hand. I don't think about sex or even a kiss or a hug. I think about someone holding my hand.
deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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i definitley know what your saying, if you need someone to talk to i will listen and try to help. i am lonley too

You may find this hard to believe but I do the same. It sucks but one doesn't know how to deal with it

ahh that's very sad *hugs* i m here if u want to talk to someone =)

i understand competely. I've never been in a relationship before. Sometimes i wrap my arms around myself so it's like i'm being held. But i'm sure someone will find you. I'm 16 sp i'm not in the dating game yet.

Oh how I understand. I'm there right now. I wish I knew the answer... then I could give it to you and help fill that hole in both of us.

I get ya

Sweetie it will happen i promise you. get a good group of girl friends and start going out and meeting people. I truly believe the more people you meet the closer you are to the one. By meet i mean meet not sleep xxxx

I totally get u, I feel the same way, I need physical intimacy it's just lonely... :(

I feel you, I also do that when I'm sleeping. :( But don't lose hope, your still young and I know if your a good person you'll have someone special. It hurts that we long for love, we want to be taken care of, and maybe that's why we feel there's something they say, "good things happen to those who wait." It's a good idea if you focus on your own; focus on other goals, fix yourself... you gotta love yourself first honey! So that when time comes, the perfect man will look at you and say, "hey, she's so beautiful" ;)

I know the feeling of wanting someone to hold, or even just touch. Are you an introvert by nature, or do you wall yourself off from others?

I know that feeling....:(

It will come for you. Maybe take longer than you want but it will.

Life isn't fair, but, it goes on. - My Mother