Losing MyselfHumans need physical contact. ba
I'm not dying, and I don't think people without physical contact simply 'die' outright if they're basic needs like food and water are met, but I can see the real reasons why they die. Over the last few years, I've been losing my appetite, losing weight, losing energy, and I've been depressed more. Anxiety seems to increase slightly each month I go without contact. The desire for it is almost always on my mind. I fall to sleep crying or hugging myself most of the time.
I haven't been touched or held at all for over a decade. More importantly, I haven't had a single intimate physical connection with someone (ie, kissing, hand holding, or cuddling) in my life. I'm not even comfortable being touched anymore. Someone almost brushed my hip as they were walking by in a hallway yesterday, and I was repulsed but longing for it at the same time. Even something as simple and pointless as that.
It's not about sex, that's an afterthought. It's about holding someone and sharing affection.
Rennn 18-21, M 1 Response 2 Feb 6, 2013