Sick = Craving??
What exactly is it about me being sick and being stuck at home, that makes me want someone even more. I crave them now. Before, it was just a little feeling sometimes. Not now... it's driving me crazy. Am I just bored? Do I just want something -or more like someone- to mess with? I find that I'm getting slightly sadistic about it too. Not in a physical kind of way, I just really want to tease and screw with someone's head (with their consent of course). Which means a lot of physical contact without it going very far.
But I'm sick, why do I find myself thinking about this kind of stuff when I feel horrible right now? It's just weird... And I'm not sure how to handle it. lol