I Feel So Tortured... Not For Me... But Someone Else

I went out tonight, trying to rid myself thoughts of last night. I cashed my check, went out to get some food. I ran into an old friend there who asked me how I was. We talked for awhile, and I realize how I missed her. She was my first high school crush. We had some fun, but in the end it felt awful, because she told me about how her boyfriend had abused her and hit her. I felt so horrible. All I could do was say how sorry I was. I feel so awful inside for her. I care for her a great deal. It was torture watching her go back to him at the end of the dinner. How horrible I feel. I tried to talk her out of it... She said it was nice of me, but she couldn't. She loved him.... I came back here to my apartment and am weeping. I don't do that in public. I just feel so bad for her.
drcynic drcynic
26-30, M
1 Response Dec 14, 2007

I'm sorry that you had to watch her turn around and go back to him after telling you how awful he was to her...that had to hurt. When I was being abused, I didn't tell a soul because telling someone would make it "real". I could pretend it wasn't happening if no one knew. Maybe her telling means that she's going to ditch him? Hopefully she will before he hurts her anymore.