Right now I'm sitting in my room having a breakdown because about an hour ago my girlfriend told me that her dad might be fighting for custody over her, so she might be moving to Texas. Last year was the worst year of my life so far WITH her here. What will happen when she's not here? I'm already battling depression and self harm, but now I feel like I'm more alone in it. All the security I got from her will suddenly be gone. She'll be more happy there with her dad, but I don't know if I can stand her not being here. That makes me feel even more selfish. I'm such a wimp. Everything that's happened to me so far is because I was a wimp. I can't withstand stress or fullfil expectations. I can't do anything right. I can't even suck it up and just say something to someone. Even now that I know my girlfriend might be leaving I still can't say anything to her. I'm just so torn up and I don't have anyone here to comfort me. I feel so alone and tiny and helpless. I can't even help myself through a breakdown. I just suck in general. I might of as well just give up my hope of getting over my cutting too because its never going to happen.
maskedbyleft00 maskedbyleft00
13-15, F
Jul 17, 2010