I Am Currently Unemployed

Can't Find A Permanent Job

By: fancygal

Written on January 7th, 2013

I've had some contracts here and there but nothing to get me started. I live at home and I'm so thankful I have a family that supports me. But unable to find work is slowly killing what SMALL amount of self-esteem I have left. And I just have this pressing desire to be out on my own. I'm old. Getting older by the minute. And tired. Just so tired. I gave up my search for my dream job and I'm now applying to anything and everything. And with each application I send to a place that is nothing like what I wanted to do with my life... another chunk of me shrivels up and dies. Of course, not even these places will give me an interview.

Someone mentioned volunteering... I may look into that again. As long as I can find something I can stomach (as in no cleaning up after animals or people...there seems to be only that kind of thing near me.)

EDIT: What the hell? You have to have experience to volunteer in most places too? ::is doomed::

EDIT SPRING 2013: And in case anyone wanted to know... I found a job :) Temporary but I hope it will become permanent... I can't believe how securing a job can make me feel like a decent human being again. It's great. ::deep breath:: And it's even doing what I wanted to be doing :)

By: fancygal

Age: 26-30 , Female

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fancygal

And in case anyone wanted to know... I found a job :) Temporary but I hope it will become permanent... I can't believe how securing a job can make me feel like a decent human being again. It's great. ::deep breath:: And it's even doing what I wanted to be doing :)

Apr 6
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- plughxyzzyadv
  Good for you kid!!! My bro was out of laid off after 18 years. He was out of work for 5 months,got a job at a temp agency, they found him a printing press operator position (the same job he had). He went to work for 3 days and they offered him a permanent position making 30% more than his old job. Hope you make a such a good impression too!
  You were always a decent human being. Sometimes it's just hard to remind ourselves of that.
  
  Apr 6
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- fancygal
  Thanks :) And wow that's great for your brother too :D Yay to things looking up!
  And yes, when you're down for so long you kind of lose sight and it's very hard to remember that.
  
  Apr 6
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flamingo0211

I hope you have found a job.

Mar 12
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- fancygal
  I haven't.
  
  Mar 12
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shawn219

I am feeling the same exact dreadful feeling. I feel like Im stuck sometimes but I working for others literally makes me sick. I had a friend who helped me get a job waiting tables. When I got there and started the training, my anxiety took over and made me sick while there and I had to go home early both times. I have nothing against waiters/waitresses; and after seeing what it takes it definitely takes some skill. However, its just not my cup of tea at all! I have a few different interestes that I would love to tap into, I just want to work for myself with whatever I end up doing. You are not alone at all!

Feb 8
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- fancygal
  Oh my. I've never tried to be a waiter or waitress because my coordination isn't very well but I have a feeling I'd have the same reaction. Working at a grocery store was pretty bad at times... and I tried hosting once and no thank you!
  Working from home is wonderful if you're good at selling yourself. I've tried to work from home and I"ve had a few freelance jobs but I am HORRIBLE at putting myself out there. Low self-esteem + shyness = crappy at selling self to get jobs.
  But I wish you lots of luck! I hope you find something you can do from home that you enjoy :D
  
  Feb 14
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chan2005

what type of work are you looking for?

Jan 28
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- fancygal
  Anything that doesn't involve the food industry...
  
  Jan 28
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