I Dodged It For Over a Year

I finally got laid off in December.  After bouncing through 2 additional jobs after my first one ever (graduated from college in '04) got the layoff bug and I got a new one right before my department was shut down....this third job in 2 years was the end of my story.  I was finally making it somewhere with my career:  25 years old and making just shy of 60K in a mid-sized city, I was rolling in the dough with two houses and a BMW.  Wham!  Now I'm owner of two rental houses (which thankfully have tenants) and stuck living with my ex-boyfriend because it's rent-free and there's no way unemployment benefits can keep a roof over your head, lights on, a car payment and food on the table. 

I've already finished with the I'M CRAZY stage of being depressed, angry, complacent, hopeful, depressed again, losing 15 pounds and am ready to "enjoy" my free time college student-style by traveling across the US and visiting friends and family.  It really stinks though because with all of this newfound free time, I'm very lonely.  I realized that all of my friends were my co-workers and without work we don't co- anymore.  I'm home alone with my cat all day and have turned into a desperate "housewife"....I grocery shop, do laundry and cook dinner.  What a waste for someone with a college degree that graduated summa *** laude at the top of her class.  I've been whittled down to a knocked-up-at 16, GED lifestyle.  I can't possibly be alone out there...

LaniLaKai LaniLaKai
26-30, F
2 Responses Apr 6, 2009

Don't feel too bad I was fired and have 7 kids in the house-3 are special needs. Our health insurance was cancelled (5 out of 9 people in the house are on Meds) and my disability was reduced 60%. We had to put a lock on the kitchen cupboard to keep the teenagers from eating all the food all at once.<br />
Cable cancelled, trips to beach cancelled, no more fast food, movies, and in this 100 degree heat, no air conditioning! Kids are damaging things around the house, light bulbs are burning out faster and we cut the use of paper towels in order to save what little we have.<br />
I too am alone, isolated and depressed (work comp doctor put me on antidepressants). I have no friends, my wife does not want me to talk down on myself, so I am truly alone. <br />
so, I am with you.

but this is just one phase of your life. you can change it around and create a life you want. focus on getting a job, but also make an effort to establish friendships, since loneliness can make you become isolated and afraid to deal with your difficulties. search for inspiration and spend time doing things you are good at and interested in. I wish you the best. take care:)