Hating Being Unemployed
I have been unemployed now for almost 8 months. It's getting to the point where there are no jobs for me to apply for. I am networking, I am on temps lists and I am looking on job boards daily. There doesn't seem to be any work. I missed out on 3 positions this week in my own industry and I didn't even get an interview. It's hard when I'm grocery shopping and I end up putting everything back on the shelf. I'm eating very badly just to save money but my health is suffering. I've never experienced this before. I have a mortgage as well and the money is running out. I've worked out how to have dinner for $2 it's very scary.
my friends seem to not care, perhaps because they don't want to know. the only people I discuss my problems with are my family, but I get the feeling they are sick of hearing the negative side. i'm not even getting temp jobs. I'm too proud to ask family for money but I might have to otherwise I risk losing my home. I don't have enough money to go out with friends and this is starting to cause problems in my social life. I don't eat out much and I don't drink, I haven't seen a movie in months and I don't remember the last time I had a night out. How sad.
I'm so overwhelmed I cry every day and night and I just don't seem to be able to see a positive solution to all of this. I had to cancel my gym membership today. I get enough exercise walkiing anyhow, so I probably don;t need it. I found this website as I googled "I just want to scream". I do. I think I'll feel much better when I do. but I can't. yesterday after a rejection, I actually felt like I was going to throw up. I've never felt that before.
there are days when I stay in pj's all day and I may not leave the house for a couple of days. I really couldn't be bothered anymore. I worked for a month and it was great, but when I finished that it was like being retrenched all over again. I am trying to conserve energy to cut my electricity bill but the weather is getting colder now and it's really hard. When I have really bad days I am grateful that I still have a warm roof over my head as I know that others have not been so lucky. I still have a family that will support me no matter what and at the moment I still have my health.
Thanks for listening to me vent.