What Am I Doing?????I have worked with this guy for the past three years but we only see each other every few months. I was sent to another state to run a project and he was the only person I knew pretty well. I always had a feeling that he had a crush on me so I always kept my distance. He started persuing me pretty hard. One night after some drinks, he told me how he felt about me and we have been seeing each other ever since.
He says that his marriage is horrible and I believe him because other people have also said this but I feel ****** all of the time. This is probably going to sound horrible, but I don't feel guilty about it. I feel ****** for me knowing that Im settling in a relationship that is going no where. I don't get to have a relationship that I want to have.
He only see's his wife on the weekends so for two to three days, I get stuck wondering if his wife was nice to him this time and maybe he is having second thoughts about me. What I don't get about his situation is that his wife pulls crap like when she feels like she is losing him she will stop taking her birth control, not tell him and get pregnant again, or she will get pissed off at him and take all of the money out of their account so he can't access any of it & he still won't leave.
The stupid thing about this is that I have read everything that I have written and I know how stupid it all sounds. I just don't know how to pull myself out of this or how to stop having feelings for him.