Breaking Up With Him Today.Hi
I am using this for positive support...so please please please don't judge me.
I am a teacher who has been living overseas for the past 4 years, in August 2010 I met a married man who was in the military at the time. He was upfront about being married, and he said that they were not in a good place in their relationship.
Anyways, we became friends and did things that friends did...movies, sports etc. With no romantic involvement. In November we both admitted that we were developing feelings for each other, I wanted to stay clear of entering into dating a married man....but a little bit further down the road - January 2011, I listened to my heart and not my head and became his girlfriend.
It was a terrific relationship, everything I wanted and needed in a partner. Except, the fact he was still married. It was very easy/hard to forget this fact. Easy because his wife was never around, hard because it played on my mind so heavily.
In April 2011, he left the military and then in July 2011 he came back to where I was living to be with me, working at another job.
He said that he would get working on his divorce for the past year, and they have been separated for about 1 year.
It's now June 2012, and he is still not divorced.
I love him so much but I am breaking up with him today as I cannot put my heart and mind through this anymore. Promises that don't come true, my hopes get dashed. We have had many good times together, and our mutual friends see us as boyfriend/girlfriend. No one knows the truth (except one of my close friends) that he is still married.
I am so sad today, I can't stop crying. He is the person I want to be with , but the situation and circumstances aren't right and it's not fair to me anymore.
Any support/advice would be appreciated. I am lost and need to know how to move forward.
Thanks for listening.