What Am I Doing?

Not only am I dating a married man, I am living with him! We were high school sweethearts, but ended up marrying other people. We ran into each other in our 30's, and had an affair for a while. We were both married. We reconnected about 9 months ago, He was living with a woman, other than his wife. The relationship with the girlfriend had run its course, and we started hanging out again. We are in our 50's now. He will never divorce his wife, and I know that. The wife is not the problem. The ex girlfriend is very bitter, and is doing child-like things: drive-by's, keying cars, etc. We are in love and have been for 40 years! As I type this, I wonder what am I doing? If you were to see us walking down the street, you would not take a second look. We are just two average looking hardworking, parents, and grandparents. We have ridiculously, insanely, GOOD sex, nothing is off limits between us. We do things regular married couples do, only minus the arguing. We both agree there is no sense in it, life is too short, and we want to enjoy the time we have together. We talk about a lot of what if's?? At our age it is important. We can talk about anything, I love him deeply, but what am I doing?
spotlitek spotlitek
51-55, F
3 Responses Dec 13, 2012

You're living your life to the fullest, with someone that you love deeply and share an intense connection with . . You are worthy of that happiness. No guilt or regrets, just two consenting adults. Revel in the joy of it, life is indeed short !

Have fun and don't chastise the other when things finally go wrong, and it will. Your spouse will find out and decisions have to be made, but until then enjoy. The X-girl friend need a spanking.

You are doing, what comes naturally. if both your spouse are ok with it or you can be secrative, keep it going as long as it last. I wouldn't feel guilty about it.

Getting married and following our social moral standard is worst than becoming a nun or Catholic priest, whan it comes to sexual intimacy.

We are in celibacy except the society things we are not. :)