I Am Dating A Soldier

So, I met him just about two weeks before he left to boot camp, and it was immediate attraction, I spent a lot of time with him or talking to him right before he left... But i guess because of the fact we hadnt known eachother long, and the point i was at in my life, after he left I decided I was being crazy even thinking about being involved with someone about to leave. I wrote to him once because I promised i would and then that was that. Once he got stationed at his permanent base, which is on the direct other side of the country he contacted me, just friendly how are you's and what not. We talked here and there, mostly on his part, and asked me if we would pick up where we left off when he got back, i flatly said no, and was completely honest for my reason. when he came home to visit for the first time I did make the time to hang out with him, and we had a lot of fun. After the friendly conversations continued, and he asked me out, and said he wasnted to take me out on a real date. So I agreed... thhe next time he came home (mind you each time was 6 months apart) we did hang out, and this time it was just completely different on my part. I finally seen him for how compassionate and how much he liked me, and never gave up even after rejecting him, and i was smitten. We spent a week together, and then he went back. And now we are completely all in for eachother. exclusive to one another, but without the label yet. There is no doubt in my mind that I want to be with him, but I dont really know what I'm in for. And im scared that I cant handle it. We talk ever single day, and we do skype and talk on the phone, and I can say that my feelings for him are real and true, and he lets me know the same back, but God can I do this for the next three years? go 6 months without seeing him, and then for a whole deployment.. I'm so confused, but taking it one day at a time.
Ajgtv Ajgtv
26-30, F
Aug 20, 2013