The Death Of My Mother

my mother battled long cancer for about year and half. she died on april 19.my daughter's 17 birthday. i feel mad why couldn't she wait a few more hours to go. and i feel lost so very lost like a big fat hole in my heart. now mohers day is sunday and it ****** me off. i thought i was ready for her to go. but obviously not. i took care of her all the way to the end.my brother and sister helped but momma depended on me the most .i just feel so empty and lost.i don't know what to do anymore.
joiee joiee
46-50
May 8, 2012