I'm In Love! Xdd But.. Far Distance BlowsI dunno what's wrong with me but I always tend to find and fall inlove alot more on the internet than here closeby in my own country.
I found this darn awesome girl.. damn I love her so badly. When we first talked, we weren't very friendly, just like randoms/strangers.. but then we started adding sarcasm and then more and more and before we both knew it this sarcasm had become bit real (some parts of it)..
So basicly, we were sarcastic going like "owahhh, I miss you sooo soooo much!" etc when we didn't even know eachother that well. But yea, those feelings evolved and became real before we knew it. Now we're inlove with eachother but being strangled by the fact we're living very far from eachother. She lives in Malaysia while I'm in sweden.
However, I'm planing on going there around july when I graduate from school. I should have enough money by then I believe. I just hope, wish and pray we'll last till then. Sometimes the distance apart can be quite tough.
As I've confessed in a different story some years ago I've had really bad self esteem because I got acne on my back. However, this wonderful girl.. When I told her about it, she... she even put a joke about it saying I'm silly and such and and.. it made me feel so relieved! She's really wonderful. I'm just bit sad cause she thinks too low of herself, she thinks she's bad looking and such but in reality I find her very attractive and I want her to know that but I dont know how to make her understand that I really think so. I've told her that several times. I also told her that I dont love her for her appearance, but I love her for who she is. She should know that better than anyone since she's able to love such person as me.
I strongly feel that she's "the one". I dont want to lose her at any cost. This girl makes my day ALOT brighter. When I'm down and depressed, just a single word from her will make me happy again. Before I met her, I slept till 2 pm~ unless I had school or so because I didn't find a single reason to go up in the morning, I just wanted the day to end faster. But now I wake up 9/10 am everyday because I treasure my time together with her. I even wake up at 5, sometimes 4 am during school days just to get these extra 2 hours to talk to her in the morning before I head out.
Tho, our biggest problem is that it's expensive for us to meet.
But still I really want to make it work. I hope you my fellow EP friends will wish us luck!