I feel like an eighty year old woman and a five year old at the same time. I have really conflicted emotions about my mother. She puts me through so much pain, but I can't leave her or put her out because she doesn't have a job and I love her more than anyone else in this world. I wish she would leave me because I can't leave her. We fight all the time and she knows exactly how to make me feel miserable and I let her. Part of me wishes she would just die already, but the other half never wants her to die because she has been there for me way more than my father has. I just want to know when I'm allowed to start my life.
Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53
22-25, F
Aug 28, 2014