...

I remember when I was younger I used to be very feminine, I had my own look and loved that part of me.
It made me feel like I cared for myself, and I didn't cared what everybody else had to say according to my looks, as long as it made me happy.
I had a bad past, to the point I totally lost track of who I was, ME devoting and adoring a person who only made me feel like a piece of trash every opportunity he had, I'm thankful this part is out of my life.
Continuing I have a daughter, and I pay too much attention to her, same as my other loved ones like my mom and my man.
I've been focusing too much on the inside, like wisdom, feelings, past, and trying to find somehow an explanation of why things happened that way, also trying find happiness on a deeper level, But forgot about the exterior, the other part, enjoying my time doing stuff I like and here is where I am slowly going back to way I was.
I've been having good conversations with a person who I consider has always a good advice for me, not just cause of her experience but I even told her, I didn't have on my family someone I could talk to like the way we do. She really makes me think hard.
Last time she said to me " you have to be realistic, Looks are very important. What's the difference between a man an a woman?".
The truth is: don't wear high heels, I don't wear a skirt, I don't wear makeup, I don't do hairstyles, I am very simple looking woman, everything I do is just basic stuff, so my everyday look is usually t-shirt, jeans, sneakers lol.
Not too long ago I said I wanted to start to do something for myself, I am already studying psychology and I love it, but after what my friend told me ... is true.
A part of me is screaming to stop looking like a depressed person, I do miss being myself and that means go back and feel feminine, and I want to do it because it makes me feel good, so right now I'm on this make over stage, changing and loving it.