My 14 Year Old Daughter Is Growing Up And I've Been Crying Hysterically Since Firday.Hi there...my name is Debbie, I'm 47 and have only one child. Her name is Kristen and she will be 14 in March. I too have had something suddenly come over me. Like a sledgehammer. I've literally been crying since Friday night and cannot stop. She's in 8th grade and how this school year has passed so fast. Next year high school????? I can't believe my baby is gone. I feel like I'm mourning a death. Like I've lost her. I want to physically hold on to her, hug her, tell how much i love her. I do it all the time. She was with her dad all weekend and got back home at 8 pm. She could tell i had been crying. We talked. I tried to explain what I am feeling. It is soooooo hard on me right now. I feel ,like I'm dying inside of sadness. I don't express the severity of my sadness to her in all this detail. I never want her to feel it's her fault that I'm so sad. I know the high school years will fly by and she will one day leave me. Yes, I said leave me. That's how it feels. I cannot bare to think of not having her in my life on a daily basis. She is my world. I too have no other passions in my life or interests that occupy any place in my life. SHE is my life. I'm sitting here right now crying my eyes out. I realize i still have time....but such a short amount. I never ever thought about this part of parenting. I never want to let her go. I see a counselor and I'm on an antidepressant, but wow...this doom and gloom really hit me hard Friday. I feel out of control with my sadness over my beautiful daugher turning 14. I honestly fear that when the day comes that she leaves home....i will literally die of a broken heart. This pain I'm feeling regarding the future is paralyzing me. I feel like i am going crazy. I'm a complete mess.
I so badly want to find other women who are experiencing these same emotions.