Where Does Time Go?I am a father of 3 children. 12 yo girl, 9 yo boy and 1 yo girl. The first 2 we had fertility treatments to have, but we decided after the 2 we wouldn't do any more treatments, so if God wanted us to have another He would have to make it happen. We tried off and on for several years and had pretty much given up on the idea of having a 3rd, but just about a month before I was going to have a vasectomy, we found out my wife was pregnant.
It was a tough adjustment, but we wouldn't change a thing. She's such a blessing. She makes us all laugh and has brought us closer as a family.
The one aspect of her being here that I didn't anticipate is that she makes me realize how fast time goes by and how quickly the other 2 are growing up. She makes me think of the future milestones that she will have as she grows up, but at the same time it makes me think of the past with the other 2 which makes me sad.
Before she was here I was enjoying our family and my life as I have been very blessed, but I wasn't giving much thought to how fast the kids were growing up and even though we do alot as a family and we have alot of fun, I wasn't engaging them as much as I know I should on the things going on in their lives, i.e. school, friends, etc.
Now that I'm depressed about them growing up I want to be involved in every aspect of their lives, almost to an extreme. I don't want to be over bearing and push them away.
It's kinda weird I guess. I love them all so much and the older 2 have been part of my life for so long that I can't stand the thought of them not being with us. I know it's the natural progression of life and I keep telling myself that it's good that they're healthy and becoming more independent, but it makes me very sad.
I don't know where to go from here. I need to learn how to live in the moment and enjoy what I have, but I don't know how to do that right now.