My Children Were My Joy In Life. Now They're Grown And Gone. I'm Lost.I'm grateful to find this forum to connect with other mothers or fathers going through these same feelings.
I divorced when my kids were 2 & 4 and I made them my life. In fact, from the moment they entered this world, they were my world. My babies gave me something real to live for, for the first time in my life. How I loved every stage they went through. Yes, there were days I was exhausted and missed adult connection. But over time, they filled my life with the most amazing love and wonder, laughter, hugs, meaning.
I know I did a good job. They're confident and adventurous; too much so. They're now on two separate continents and I'm back here in their quiet little hometown.
I'm tied here by my job. I've never found a man who was worth the effort.
Sometimes it seems like all I have are boxes full of photos. Each one brings back floods of memories. The memories are literally almost psychically painful; a grip on my heart, a cavern for a stomach.
I've decided to keep the photos in the box for now and work hard to build a new life for myself, rediscover who I am besides "Mom". It's working! I'm starting to call up acquaintances & getting together for coffee or lunch or a movie. Connecting with other people is the key! :-))