What Is Left In Life?Halloween was just last week. It is a hard time for me. When my children were smaller I so looked forward to Halloween, I loved the excitement in my children. This Halloween......I sat on the couch watching TV just me and my husband. I was very depressed. I missed those Halloweens of costumes and candy and trick or treating, scary stories, that precious family time. Halloween is just the start of my annual depression because my kids are grown or at least growing up, My son is 20 and my daughter is 15. Then comes Christmas, which is a lot different nowadays, since Santa vanished a long time ago. The magic left.
I have been a mother first and foremost for the last 20 years. My kids were my first thoughts of the day and my last at night. Now they are slowly leaving me. It really hurts sometimes. And it also makes me realize that my kids have been my life for the last 20 years. Now here I am with rest of my life ahead of me, and I don't know what to do with it. I was so wrapped up in being a mother that I never really thought about what would become of me when they leave me.
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