Is This Real Depression?
Hi, I have looked online and cannot find anything about this topic. I too am depressed and my BABY just turned 1. I put baby in caps because I cherish everytime I can still call her a baby. Since she was born I have cried almost everyday about her getting older. I was sad when she was 2 months old because she wasn't a newborn anymore. Packing away clothes that she grows out of makes me want to throw up.This sounds so ridiculous as I type it, but it is very hard for me. She is healthy and happy and a beautiful baby. I keep telling myself to be thankful and she is a blessing, but I'm sad because I am so thankful and because I do love her so much. I've wanted to be a mom my whole life and wasn't interested in much else as I read on other posts here. Maybe that has something to do with it? I am always looking at her pictures from a year ago and holding her and wishing she would slow down, but not in a normal way. I don't think I should be crying about it this much. I'm not depressed about anything else in my life. I'm happy and have a happy marriage. Does this get worse? If I'm like this now, how will I cope when my last baby is growing up, or even worse when my kids get married, college, move away. I feel like I have to deal with this now before it gets out of control.