Lonly Without Trying

im lonly, not coz i want to be but this last few years have been hard, not for the want of trying , ive had a few dates but after the first it comes down to sex. i love the togeatherness but all i realy want is to be held and to cuddle up togeather. y is this so hard to find somone just to be with and be close to?

if love if a given thing y do i feel as tho im haven to give out before i can get the tender feel and chilled out relaxing mood for [ holding each other ] without the need for more demanding sexual relationship?
 just the warm feel of anothers touch or the smile of contentment would mean the world, holding hands and kissing in the rain, love without the need to do.
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Sep 15, 2012