Im Depressed But Not Lonely.

I am depressed from the fact just a few months ago i lost my fiancé to getting hit while crossing the road. I have found someone else but they confuse me and hurt me leaving me in tears even more. I just wish i could have someone who would care enough to love me and try to make my life better. I am sick of never knowing if i will wake up to a brake up message or him saying he hates me..I'm so tired and sick of life.. I just want stability and thats something i have never had..