I Feel Swallowed Up By Everything

I feel like I am losing control of everything and that my only two emotions are either anxiety or depression.  I either am paranoid about every irrational thing that could happen or I feel so bad that I can't help but sob and on a few occasions hurt myself.  It's like I stopped caring about my music and my art and I stopped being passionate about anything.  My mind is never at ease and I just want everything to go away.  The only thing that stops my thoughts of suicide are the scenes that play out in my head of my parent's grief.  I couldn't bear to cause anyone that amount of pain but I feel so helpless sometimes.
floorman512 floorman512
18-21
May 15, 2012