Idont Know My Storyline

i feel lost.. my mood keeps changing and i want to hurt myself i actually did cant find a knife to cut deep but found a pen and still does the work.. i hate this.. my anxiety leads me to this depression i need help i cant understand why its me that has to feel this way like theres no escape from this horrible feeling i feel like im drowning and i lost myself i keep feeling this way complicated i make no sense to myself when the sadness overcomes who i am theres no one i my mind that i think about from stoping my negative dark feelings i feel like im losing my mind maybe ive had and there is no point of return
akdm akdm
22-25
2 Responses Dec 7, 2012

I BROKE A GLASS ON PURPOSE AND FROM THE SHATTERED PIECES I CUT I AM BEYOND LOST LONELY SAD I WANNA BE NORMAL..WILL IT HAPPEN TO ME? WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY I DONT WANT TO AND YET WHEN I CUT I ENJOY IT IM AMAZE BY THE FEELING

HELP PLEASE ANYONE