The End Of My Rope.

i don't know how i've made it this far. i've been diagnosed as major depression/cyclothymia. i'm reaching the end of my rope rapidly.

my husband treats me like crap. he constantly yells at me in public and then treats me somewhat decent at home. i feel like less than nothing.

i have a crap job that i can't support myself on, so moving out isn't an option. i have no family to go back to either, other than my parents, and they told me i'm not welcome again.

i don't know what to do anymore. i have no way out of a crappy marriage, and no one to turn to for help because i'm not being physically abused. that's the only way a shelter will take me. i just don't know what to do anymore.

AngelicSpiritus AngelicSpiritus
22-25, F
7 Responses Dec 9, 2009

emotional and mental abuse is still torture and with the 2 conditions you have... i can see why you are having such a hard time. i know the feeling of having nowhere to run to and its scary and you feel like there is no hope. try looking up shelters for mentally abused or find a cheap studio apartment you can rent. you dont need a man like that in your life worsening your view point. life is sweet if you can find your way into the light. if you ever need to talk to anyone i all ears^^

You have a right to be treated well! Please leave him! You deserve better!

im not going to give you my take on what you should, you must have heard that too many times. but at the bottom of my heart i say, keep fighting, your husband will get what coming to him and that is inevitable, but all i will say is stand strong, you have for what may seem a long time, but in tragedy we find our true capabilities, but one suggestion i will make is that perhaps taking up a martial art might help it did a world of good for me, stay strong

Tim, I think suggesting religion is real advice for it attracts those that can at least admit they're broken and need fixing and that sure sounds like this woman. Maybe you're too perfect for religion, but many aren't. It's ironic that her husband treats her like **** in public and well in private since abuse is almost always carried out behind closed doors. Perhaps she has a friend or sibling that could help her with temporary accommodation while she sorts things out because I agree that she needs to get away from her hubby, at least for a while.

Funny how when people don't have any real advice to give they fall back on religion. Miracles happen I suppose but the source is yourself not some bearded ghost in the sky. <br />
First get yourself a qualified therapist. If you don't have insurance there are many really nice therapists who will accept what you can afford. The only downside is that they aren't looking for you, so you have to do some work to find them.<br />
Next talk to a social services counselor who might help you get the training you need to get a job that can support you without having to to depend on your creep of a husband.<br />
Finally get the hell out of that relationship.<br />
I sense you aren't nearly angry enough to muster the energy to follow my advice. You damn well should be! email me and I'll help you get as pissed off as you need to be to get out of this abusive relationship! I'm serious. Just go to my profile and send me an email. No one should have to suffer the life you are living!<br />
PS: I'm usually not an angry person but your experience got me going. Still I won't take back a thing I said. Contact me today OK? If you don't, good luck from one depressive to another.

Jesus loves you, he really does. The Bible says in John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Jesus loved you enough to die for you

Dear sister please read my blog on getting closer to the father and Mother of heaven,,,it really does work,,,and I am here for you if you want someone to talk too,,,,,you need to believe that you are worth alot,,,and God/Goddess wants to comfort you,,,and give you the power too over come the darkness in your life,,,,Love and Light Mary