I Feel Like A Ghost
I feel so worthless. I have no one. All my life I been entirely alone. My parents are abusive drunk losers. I had to teach my self everything I know, even though my parents aren't even dead. My birthday was 2 days ago. I spend it crying the whole day. Like every year. It's like a big slap in the face, the day you came into existence. Of a existence I never wanted. More like a double slap. Seeing how I have no one to even celebrate that day with. I saw this lady having a tantrum over not getting the color balloons she wanted for her party. And the only thing I wanted was someone to look me in the face and say happy birthday. I wanted to see if someone actully cared about me. But just like every year nothing. I want to know what it feels like to be loved. I keep aging and my life is going no where. I hate it! Why do all the good people always the ones getting hurt in life. If I was a ***** I'll have everything in more. I don't want to age no more, I don't want to live no more. I'm tired of trusting people and just end up being hurt. I'm so pathetic that i'm posting something on the internet cause I got no one to even talk to. I don't even know what a friend feels like, what love feels like. I'm just a numb shell of a person. I want everything to stop hurting. I can't deal no more.