I have been through a lot, I guess. I lost my family in a 2-year divorce, lost my house, my car, three different jobs, most of my belongings. I moved from a large city to a small town to be with family, but since have done nothing but sit up in my department alone. I am SO lonely, but I can't get up enough strength to go out and meet anybody (and BOY do I need a girlfriend). I am also fighting for my very life against alcoholism. I feel that I am on a downward spiral that I cannot escape. I have a good degree, but I am so tired of working for the man. I don't know that I have been more scared and helpless feeling. It took effort just to write this. Oh well, just thought I'd share.