I'm Melissa Shanfield. I'm 24 and I have Aspergers and I'm very lonely. As a teenager I was diagnosed with Aspergers a mild form of Autism. Unfortunatly I'm very bad with socailizing and have few friends. I also have no job and it's always been that way. I used to love to volunteer with kids but sinse I moved back to Boston I've not even been able to find a volunteer job. I volunteered briefly for Horizons for Homeless children, but I made a mistake and gave out an address I wasn't supposed to and I guess that was it. It was really devestating for me. They said they'd try to find a new position for me but it hasn't happened yet and I'm beginning to think it never will. The only other thing I do during the week is take one community college class. I'm working up to a 8 class certificate in Early Childhood Education. I don't have a car so I take Boston public transit train called the T everywhere. I'm terrible with directions and mental maps so the only places I know how to get to on my own are CVS, Shaw's market, and school. Lately I've only been going to school. I live with my boyfriend and I'm on Disability but I sinse I've become deppressed I just watch tv and play computer games all day. It's not furfilling at all but I can't bring myself to go out or do chores. I could not live indapendant of a group home or disability program without Paul because I am not able to understand how to rent an apartment, budget, pay bills, make calls to insurance companies and other important things most people take for granted. As a teenager I was put in Specail Ed and treated as if I were retarded which has left me doubting my abilities to do anything successfully in life. Some of this is due to the disability, and some is due severe anxiety. I'm becoming more and more isolated and I need help to get out of this rut. Write to me, it would make me feel less alone.