It HurtsI am alone. I'm always alone. I'm afraid I'll always be alone. All around me the people I have in my life are happy and "in love". I'm stuck by myself. I meet someone I really like, then I freak out and ruin everything. I don't think I know HOW to be with someone in a committed relationship. I am beginning to think I will be alone forever. My biggest fear. Usually people who fear being alone forever are the ones who are serial monogamists. Not me. I get sort of close to someone, get scared shitless and throw up walls in the bl
Worst of all I think I ruined something that could have been exactly what I want. I am beginning to think I don't deserve something so wonderful as love and companionship. I need a break from life. I want to curl up in a ball in the dark somewhere. At least then I can tell myself I'm alone because no one can find me.