Help Me

I laid there unconscious in my bathroom floor. I was slowly slipping away. My body grew cold, I struggled to scream but, nothing would come out of my mouth. I could feel my blood flooding onto the cold hard bathroom floor. Now that I was like this, I was scared to die. I slowly closed my eyes knowing that I couldn't scream, I couldn't move, I couldn't do anything but, lay there feeling myself fade away in a dark lonely world. I laid there having flashbacks of my life and how much people loved me. I thought to myself "Could this really be the end? Did I let all those horrible people win? Did I let the monster inside me eat me from inside to out? What did I do?". I could feel one little tear drop slowly make it's way down my cheek and onto the ice cold floor. I could hear my heart beat slowing down. My body became numb. I couldn't feel my wounds burn or bleed anymore. I only felt my heart slowly breaking because the day before I promise everyone I would stay strong. But how can someone stay strong when, they are so weak? Everything became dark and cold. I thought this was the end. I was scared to go but, at the same time I felt happy because I thought I didn't have to struggle with anymore pain. Or did I?

I woke up on the ground, or that's what I thought it was. I couldn't tell because everything was pitch dark. I stood up, trying not to fall back down from being so weak. I could hear people screaming for help. Cold chills ran down my spine as I started shaking. I didn't know where I was! I felt something's warm breathe against my neck, its breathe almost had a bloody odor to it. I just stood there, I was afraid to move. I didn't know what to do, I closed my eyes, trying to hold back tears. I felt a freezing cold hand lay upon my arm, I could tell it had sharp claws, as I hurried and jerked away, it cut down my arm. I fell to the ground, screaming in pain. As I laid there, I got the feeling that these things were surrounding me. I tried to get up but, I felt something push me down, and hold me down so I couldn't get up. I still struggled to get up as I struggled I could feel somethings teeth seep into my leg, the more I struggled the more the thing seeped its teeth into me. I screamed at the top of my lungs for help, hoping someone would come. Then I realized why I heard people screaming for help. I thought "Is anyone gonna help me?! Am I gonna be eaten alive and what were these things?!". I couldn't answer any of those questions. All of a sudden I felt a sharp pain go straight through my chest and heart. I gasped as tears filled my eyes, I struggled harder, trying to just maybe get away. But I couldn't get away from whatever these things were. I laid there feeling these things feed on my cold, numb, and bloody body.

My friends and family sat by my hospital bed, crying their eyes out. One of my best friends grabbed my hand and talked to me. I remember him telling me that he loved me, and that he was sorry that he wasn't there with me when all this horrible stuff happened. While he talked to me the doctor walked in, he spoke to my family and friends and told them I probably wouldn't make it. I could hear my friend scream and start crying. I felt his warm lips on my forehead, he whispered "I love you.". He let go of my hand, I wanted to grab it again and hold it but I couldn't. I heard my brother say "Where are you going?!", my best friend responded and told him in a scared shaky voice "Im not going to stay here and see him die.". Then I heard footsteps fade away into the distance. I could hear all these things but, I wanted to wake up and see how happy my family and friends were to know I was alive. I could hear a beep every once in a while, I knew that was my heart rate monitor. The beeps grew slower, the noise grew silent. All I heard now was one long beep. The heart rate monitor was making the noise, my family and friends broke down in tears and screamed. I prayed to God to forgive me for everything I had done that hurt Him and hurt other people.

It started to go all dark and lonely again. I knew I was going back to a scary, cold, and horrid world. I screamed as I screamed things grew bright and colorful. A calm lovely feeling came over me. I didn't feel sad, I didn't feel unhappy. All I could feel was happiness, the first time feeling happiness. I wasn't scared! My eyes filled with tears; happy tears. I knew at once that all my pain was gone. I finally knew I was not going to be miserable anymore.
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Dec 13, 2012