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That I am good looking, funny and nice so it seems strange that I am single. I may be those things but they don't really know the full story. The truth is, I have both schizophrenia and Aspergers. That hasn't stopped people from dating people with conditions like mine... but anyone who has been in a relationship with someone with Aspergers knows just how frustrating it is. People with Aspergers don't feel much empathy. Some people argue though that we do feel the same, if not more empathy than the average person, we just don't know how to process it. I live with my family and it's expected of me to take care of the house when everyone else is away. I work nights but I have plenty of time during the day to help out. But it usually turns out that I leave it till the very last minute or forget about it completely. Why? I just don't feel empathy. I'm well aware of the fact that my family works hard throughout the day. My brother and sister-in-law study in their spare time. I just don't feel compelled to do anything about it. If anything, I feel angry that it's expected of me. After all, I just want to be alone half the time, I don't feel close to them very much. I mean, I love them... I just don't feel very close to anybody if that even makes sense.

Like I said, no... well, very few women would be interested in a guy like me. I live on minimal wage, I live with my parents, I'm not really interesting to talk to... I am depressed half the time or paranoid, I don't know what I want to do with my life. On the plus side I smell okay. But yeah, I come across as a jerk in person. I find it's easier to communicate online because... well... I've been reading text my whole life. I've read more text in my life than I have had actual face to face conversations. I'm using skype now to communicate more with friends... it's awkward and I feel like a baby learning to walk but it's good. I've been alone for that long that it feels strange to actually look someone in the eyes and feel what they feel. It's a good thing though and I feel that I need it.
AltF4 AltF4 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 12, 2013

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I can relate to some of that. I don't know how to connect with people, or make friends past acquaintances. I've always been alone, so in a way I've become self centered. Although I am compassionate, I don't really know any world outside my own mind, and I'm so scared to venture. Learning to do that does sort of feel like learning to walk or talk the first time as if I were a baby.