I have been at college for almost a year now. i made some friends last semester but this semester i dont really know anyone. i have the same roommates and we thought we were pretty close but they all go their seperate ways. my best friend has a girlfriend that is a ..... yeah she is over at our apartment all day long every day. i absolutley cannot stand her so i hate being home because they are there. i have nowhere else to go because i have no friends. I am shy until i get to know someone or maybe i lack self confidence. either way i am still a bit anti social. if anyone is reading this i want them to know i am not just another emo kid. i have a lot of friends at home and i am a happy person. My biggest problem is that i go to a church school and i don't really fit into the byui mold. i have a class in a half an hour so maybe things will go well with cute girl i sit next to. i just need one friend. "if a man has but one friend, he is a rich man"
Today while i was walking between classes i saw two people i know but they did not see me. i feel as if i am invisible. All of these moods combine into an uncureable anxiety that leaves me with no motivation to do anything.