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I Am Depressed Because I Am Lonely

hey my name is molly, im 19 years old, im really new to this kind of stuff and here is my story. i have always been a shy and introverted person my entire life and i always had trouble making friends. When i was a sophomore in high school i had to switch to homeschooling because i would get so nervous just going to school  and having to even talk to people but switching to homeschool was actually a bad move for me because i became even more lonely because i would just sit at home all day by myself, so i went back to regular high school my junior year and i was more confident and i broke out of my shell a little bit then all of a sudden i had alot of friends and i was finally comfortable in my own skin. life was amazing. but it seems like the people that i do become friends with either screw me over or they just use me for things.   i am now currently in my second year of college i go to school monday and wednesdays and i work all of the other days so i am constantly surrounded by people but i have never felt so alone in my entire life. my friends have recently stopped talking to me and inviting me to hang out with them and i dont even know why. i feel like have trouble connecting with people and that people just dont get me and most of the people i talk to now are "just acquaintences" i feel like im in a rut and im sick of feeling sad and alone, i want a change. I still live at home so i have my family to support me and to talk to thank god=] but sometimes its nice to just have fun and talk to other people...you know what i mean?

mollz15693 mollz15693 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 15, 2010

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hi there..you know what? as of this moment. i too am feeling the same as you.. im glad im not the only one going thru this stuff you know.,,im from the philippines by the way..we could be friends if you like..you know ive been lonely this college..because im the sort of type of intelligent person as they say..nerdy...they also tease me gay even if im not..i too think suicidal...but ive decided now..at this time..im gonna change me self..no ones gonna benefit except me right???ill be stronger now..you know college is the preparation for real life..so why not treat it as real as well?many people want you down.but who cares. they are not the ones whose gonna feed you anyways..i will work hard..i paid for college so why should i bother people want me down..no one knows the future ...i will change now my values..ive been keeping this to myself..ive never walked outside the house because im afraid of being judged..but now, i realized..life is like what we see in movies....so dramatic but is happeining...you know what friend, i advice you to pour down all things you want to let go or change of yourself..evrything into writing...i feel better now..thank you ive read this article..the world is indeed really small...hehehehehe....i will think of the future from now on...<br />
my motto, keep moving forward......

hi there..you know what? as of this moment. i too am feeling the same as you.. im glad im not the only one going thru this stuff you know.,,im from the philippines by the way..we could be friends if you like..you know ive been lonely this college..because im the sort of type of intelligent person as they say..nerdy...they also tease me gay even if im not..i too think suicidal...but ive decided now..at this time..im gonna change me self..no ones gonna benefit except me right???ill be stronger now..you know college is the preparation for real life..so why not treat it as real as well?many people want you down.but who cares. they are not the ones whose gonna feed you anyways..i will work hard..i paid for college so why should i bother people want me down..no one knows the future ...i will change now my values..ive been keeping this to myself..ive never walked outside the house because im afraid of being judged..but now, i realized..life is like what we see in movies....so dramatic but is happeining...you know what friend, i advice you to pour down all things you want to let go or change of yourself..evrything into writing...i feel better now..thank you ive read this article..the world is indeed really small...hehehehehe....i will think of the future from now on...<br />
my motto, keep moving forward......

I understand how you feel Molly. I'm 18, first year of uni, I miss being a child because until I was around 10 years old, I used to have lots of friends at school and felt extremely happy with my life. However, as I hit adolescence, I found that I had no true friends and ever since, I have felt very lonely. Throughout high school, I was repeatedly bullied and teased and there was many times where I have wanted to end my life and just escape it all. I still only have a few friends, but I think of them more as acquantices than friends, I mean, I occasionally hang out with them and have fun, but I feel socially awkward and as though I don't belong. All I want is to be happy, have true friends that care about me and want to hang out with me, and to also find a girl out there somewhere who is right for me. I just want to make the most out of life and to enjoy every minute but my life so far has been blanketed by loneliness and misery. I feel that I have no one to talk to and that I'll eventually go crazy if things dont improve. If you're feeling lonely, send me a msg if you want and we can talk :)