I've been depressed for almost two years now. It use to be so bad that I would often think of suicide. I'm afriad I will come back to that point. If my friends ask me what's wrong, I say nothing. I put on a fake smile and laugh so they don't worry. I don't want attention drawn towards me. if i look sad, I say I'm tired. They ask why I never want to hang out and why I don't have any interest in things anymore. I say I'm grounded for a long time. I don't want them to think I'm a crazy person, for being severely depressed and being sad all the time. I don't think they could deal with it. So, that's why I fake happy. I wish I wouldn't, but I can't help. I just need somene to accept me for who I am instead of trying to mold me into something I don't want to be.